At lashes-to-lunges I try to do a weekly challenge. Something that is out of the norm, exciting, new, anything that gets me out of my comfort zone. This week I went with my friend Tabitha to try a spinning class. Tabitha is a very fit gal, I have went running with her before (well she ran, I begged her to slow down) and she is also a mother of 4, including a 3 month old. If she has time to do a spin class, than I have no excuse. Talk about inspiration.
We met up at Wilson’s, checked in and headed into the spin room. A kind of smaller, dark room that was pretty chilly. Lots of stationary bikes all facing a stage with one bike and a microphone. The instructor was very nice and helped me adjust my seat, explained what “spinning terms” she was going to be using and what they meant. She turned the lights down real low, almost completely dark and turned the music up. She got up on her bike on the little stage and got us going.
We began, pedaling, standing up, “sprinting,” slowing down to a “jog”, sitting back down, etc. All the while adjusting our resistance. It sounds confusing but it was really pretty simple. Each song, we did a different set. The one I most liked was a hip hop song that we had to really emphasize the pedaling and move to the side each time. In the mirror, it looked like we were all dancing to the song. Was really fun and looked pretty cool too. My legs were on fire in the middle of “Fighter” by Christina Aguilera but eventually they became numb and I was able to finish with ease, no stopping or cheating on my resistance.
I really enjoyed it. As I am writing this, the numbness I mentioned is actually starting to wear off a little and my legs are getting sore and feeling noodle-ly. This makes me think a little about life. And consequences. Reactions. Cause and effect.
I remember my high school guidance counselor calling me into the office and asking the big question, “What are your plans after high school?” Uhhh…I don’t know. I was coasting through school, often times by the skin of my teeth. I knew I didn’t want to pay to go to school for 4 more years when I barely wanted to go when it was free. Eventually I figured out that skin and makeup was a passion of mine (often doing friends makeup for prom, etc) and decided that a shorter specialty school, like Esthetics, was the right choice for me. But I hadn’t really thought about it previously.
Sometimes its easy to get stuck in the “numbness.” Going through the everyday motions of life, every day duties. Work/school, kids, dinner, bed. We wake up 5 years later and the numbness has faded and we look around and wonder what happened. When you really think about the bigger picture, in the grand scheme of things all we can control are our actions and our attitude. We can’t control other people, situations, the weather, our age, time. We can choose to be happy, to work hard, to see the glass half full. When I was on that stationary bike the instructor could coach me through it but I was the one who had to do the work. Have you ever tried to help someone who doesn’t want to be helped? Yeah. It doesn’t work too well.
So I have to remind myself, what am I doing? Am I reminding myself daily that the choice I make today doesn’t seem like that big of a deal, but it will matter down the road? Whether that’s what I spend my money on, what I put into my body, who I choose to spend my time with? Time really does fly. I never liked when “old people” would say that, I was just like “Yeah whatever, I can’t wait to grow up!” Tonight Drayden was brushing his teeth in the mirror after his shower and saw a piece of lint on his armpit and was like “haha, look CC!” He thought it was a hair. I laughed. He is in such a hurry to grow up. We always encourage him to stay little. To play, have fun, be a kid.
In life, I am the only one who can make the changes for myself. The decisions. The actions. I am the one who can change what the effect is when the numbness wears off. So often its easy to be “too busy” for things. I never want to be too busy to make time for the people I love. I don’t want something to happen to someone and I have regret because I was stuck in the “numbness phase.”
God wants our attention. Our presence. Our hearts. Our desires. He wants us to be living in the present while thinking about our futures. He wants us to remember the big picture. To not just coast through life, wondering what the outcome will eventually be.
I know after this challenge the outcome is going to be difficulty walking tomorrow. But that’s something I can live with. 🙂